it does not take me a lot of time to recover....

the previous relation which only takes 20+ days does not taking my time for long....
maybe deep in my heart ed realize....
he is good in tolerating and try to understanding me in all aspect...
but there is 1more things....
ppl who know me well should know,
i may look strong,
i may look independent,
i may look tough,
yet i also wish i could depend on ppl...
he may thought that we are understand each other enough cause he random have friendship which is more than 2years...
i can guess his heart easily...
but how much he understand me?
i not sure...
aquarius isn't that easy to be understand...
maybe i also not understand myself well enough...
maybe i m really that kind of ppl which last time my 3rd bro said... (qi shi zhe zhong ren hen li hai)
although i m almost forget the content...
but title of blog seems wont be forgotten that easily... (maybe because of it, wat i know is my heart is pain even for that title itself- "jinja apayo")
i think it was a post that criticized me, saying i m pretended?
cant really remember...cause from wat i understand bout him last time is, he feel i m pretending de ba...
i cant say past is past...
i will just say i will move forward...
back to that relation de guy...
he would just look like a kid to let me worry...
maybe i m still not used to be 2 ppl lifes ba...
ws said this: it need to be train...and who else could be accept ur weirdos o??
to ws, although my lunar age is 25, yet according to the real year i m 23 ok???
still young...
still long way to go...
still have a lot of things to fight off...
i dun wish to get myself slow down and enjoy for now...
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tomolo going back to study life liao...
going to meet the same lecturer which her subject i get C+ last time...
i told her this before: i rather u failed me, but dun let me get a C+...because of ur subject all my pointer is been drag of...
been rude to that lecturer isn't?
great....
going to meet her again and see how she gonna torture me...
all senior say she is a cockroach (xiao qiang) that cannot die no matter how many semester de senior had complain bout her...
still her backup are thick enough... :(

fate~

my mum recently like to ask me:
why are u always fall when u in critical exam?
i hate when u fall each time like this...
this is what my mum say to me...
yes, i m back to single life again now...
the main obstacle which both of us (that guy and me) are the obstacles which we respect the most...
god arrangement....
the 2nd relationship (relationship which both parties agree to be couple) end in just 20+ days...
remember last time my tuition tutor told me that i cant involved in relationship...
cause guy will cheat on me...
this time, he dint cheat but just god arrangement being our 1st obstacle...
i m not doing well for my exam...
get another c+ for 1 of the subject...
now cgpa becoming 3.45...
left only 2 semester for me to fight over 3.67 in order to get a 1st class degree hons...
yes, this is my aim...
maybe i m greedy...
maybe i m not measuring my own abilities...
but at least i told myself fight until the end...
not to regret in the future...
yet at the same time i told myself that if i cant get is ok...
just pay the loan..
my mum is worried about me too...
maybe this is really 1st time she seeing me study so hard to get it...
all this while when i was SPM nor STPM, i wont study much instead having myself more on drama...
now what i need is CONCENTRATION, FOCUS ONLY ON STUDY....
back to study life again on 17th feb...
clear off everything, to face a new sem again...
study, assignment and so on...