last day contact with each other

i choose to leave my comfort zone in order  to have more challenging life..
but 2nd reason that lead me to this decision was that jerk...
we have great memories before this...
but i choose to believes that he doesn't really love me...
i choose not to contact with each others...
i know he wont find me anymore, he will hold his own principles tight..
i asked him to block me, but he choose not to...instead he said this as our last chat...
: thanks and sorry. if anything u need help, u can find me...
the only things he can help me is to block me..
haha...that is what i told him...
never let me have the chance to find him...but since he cant do it, den i shall do it..
i blocked him, i deleted him..but i know i wont forget his number for meanwhile..
i will never need to watch cctv to see whether he is late for work..
i will never hear the voice of him...
i will never need to hear the sound of his footstep and when he open up shoe cabinet...
we will not have anythings that are necessary to keep us contact with each other...
honestly, deep inside my heart still believe he is a good guy but he is not the right guy for me...
i know if he promise, den he will keep his promise...
i know this apply the same as how he love a gal...
but i m not that women he wanted...
i m just a replacement after all..
my heart seems to be in hospital now...
how long it will take me to recover?

if he loves u, he is a good guy, but if he is not, then he is a jerk

is been one year for me to come back here...
although knowing that friends around are no more in blogger...
but still, like to post story of life here...
nothing much...
just meeting up a jerk..
actually, he is very sweet guy...
just he is a jerk when he doesn't have any feeling to u...
again, meeting up with a leo...
i m always been surrounded by leo..
he said: be careful if u been bite by leo..
but i m just a bottle (aquarius)...leo cant bite me...
den he said: if he cant, den he will spoil u...
ya rite...den he will dump me a side rite???
he agreed..
actually, i know i m not important to him...
include my feelings...
is just a one sided of me...
new friends around say the same things again...
are u a psycho?to keep on hurting urself...
i think so...maybe i really need to meet psychologist...
honestly, when only i can found the one who is going to protect me instead of using me??
honestly, i really have a bad sight of looking on guy..