no mood for today...

today my schedule should be study macro...
cause next monday i having my macro exam...
but dunno why,when i come back here and saw back what i have post last time i realize a lot of things...
i wont delete anythings cause it really encourage/motivate me a lot...
i very thankful to him to be by my side last time....(no matter is sad or happy)
at here i would like to say thx to him a lot and sorry...
sorry for i being so mischievous last time...
or anythings that i did make him disappointed....
although what i write now maybe he dint saw it but i dunno why suddenly i feel like want to write bout him....
although i feel sorry and thx to him but i still the same...
i like the condition where he and i are a stranger now...
reason???(i actually know why...)
but i dunno he know or not...
he know or not that is not important to me ed...
cause both of us are STRANGER...

2days to go....

i m really stress of........................
this few days i try my best to read up ed....
morning 10something study until 6somethings....
of course there is a break in between la...
in a silent & empty house...
without tv,comp any entertainment things...
but my phone is with me la....(expired ed)
so it makes me cant go to fb through phone also...
i really have no time ed...
yet today still wan go for tt for last day...
really hope i can go through it to realize my mum dream....
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this few days i realize i really old liao...
whole body pain...
especially shoulder and kidney part...(maybe i sit down for too long)
when come to raining time,my leg also pain...
~~i need massage~~

1week to go.......

alright,my stpm left 1week to go it also means 1week for me to know whether is it the end of my education road...
i should read up my pp1 and micro 1st...
i hope i can absorb all of the things that i should remember....
really hope i can success this time...
just to get into uum and go far from here...
although i know when i get there i will wish the different things...
but at least i can save money there(maybe)..
hehe^^...
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all the best to my stpm friends...
and wish all of u can get what u dream of...
of course to non stpm,hopefully every things go smooth in ur life too no matter is in education or career...

again...i do the same choice again...maybe it ed be my habit...hehe^^

i solve the quiz ed...
i know who he love ed...
but this gal misunderstood him...
and choose not to listen bout what he explain...
and here i am again to do the same things like i always do...
been KEPO...
help him to explain to her...
cause i feel he really love her...
so i try to solve his problem so that he wont so sad and tired...
hehe^^
really hope they can together...
am i very kepo???
am i very stupid???

if i never met him up....

if i never met him up i think i wont be like this...
if i never fall to him,i will not miss him now...
if i never lost him,i will not know that i really fall to him ed...
everythings really too late ed....
cause we will not go back to the past now...
future what will it be???
we dun even know what happen in the next sec,mins,hours,and even day...
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i guess this few days sick really makes me think a lot....
now we just like cold war with each other...
dint even chat at all...
hoping he could care a little bit more bout me....
like i do...
that's y i think he really change ed...
however,really wish him to be happy...hehe^^

*envy* haha^^

actually today morning i have a terrible mood because of my mum...
today my young sis go to work ed...
and my mum need to do a lot of housework...
and i dint go to skul this few days...
i actually wake up early cause wan to help her up...
yet she keep on pour cold water to me say that i cant help her...
i know i still childish...
i should break the cold wall between us...
i know i should insists help her up...
but who actually know what characteristic is she...
i know if i insists to take her mop she will scold me or the cold war become much more thicker....
so i just sit down in front of computer to be someone she thought i would be...
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my friend ting ling receive flowers from secret admirer....
she dun wan to tell me who is it...
in chat box we just have a talk bout it...
i say she such happiness to receive flowers again...
yet she say just 2nd flowers only...
so to make her understand,i said i dint even receive 1 in my 19years life...haha^^
so she said she bought i for me on my next year birthday...
actually i more hope to receive from beloved...
haha^^
cause this kind of things is beloved job...
that is my concept too...
i believe most of the girls hope to receive the 1st flowers from bf...
hehe...
although for guys that is such a wasting money...
but it is romantic for girls...
and sometime girls will scold their bf of wasting money...
actually in deep of girls heart is happy...
haha^^

is so sweet to see her happiness with him...

today i too free so i go to see selected friends blog...
hehe...
i go to see my friend young fang blogs...
i like it very much...
haha...
and it was so sweet between her and my 2nd bro...
haha^^
loving each other,caring each other,missing each other and so on...
so this means by love???
haha...
life should full of love i know that...