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my form 6 gang plan to go for a vacation...
den i told them that i cant go near water for this year until next year...
once next year i can go as much as i can...
is not because i dun wish to join
but is i really cant...
one of my friend said "u byk pantang lo"
den i told her "i m like that and that is for my own good..."
den another friend and her trying to keep attacking me,..
saying something like den u cannot go take bath lo,den u cannot drink water lo den u cannot near "longkang lo" and bla bla bla...
i was starting to hold on...
i saying that is not funny...
den one of them saying very funny lo...
wakaka...hahaha...
maybe for them is funny but not for me...
i dunno for readers...
does it really funny???
yes we can control what we want and dun want...
but can you control your fate???
maybe some of u yes...
what happen if ur fate is saying that tomolo u are dying???
can you control that tomolo u will not dying???
maybe you all will think i think too much...
or maybe i m very superstition...
but this is what i feel...
god dint allow us to do this there is a reason behind...
just like a mum asking u not to do that, it means there is reason behind...
what i can say is i m angry and disappointed on you all...
maybe for u attacking what ppl believe is funny...
and is not about level of our relation...
there is a limit also no matter how close...

do not sure what is reality...

today actually plan to donate blood...
but my 2nd sis did not come back and whole family going to kajang to visit a aunty that very close to my grandma last time...
no car for me, cant go out during holiday...
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this sem break go back to ex company to work...
i remember last time i said in fb that i wish to任性....
对谁任性，真样任性我不懂....
actually i wish to give myself a break...
sometime i have a little bit of time, i will think...
i was working every holiday since form 1 except lower 6...
when form 1 holiday i working at a uniform shop near pandamaran...
form 2 and form 3 working at giant as promoter....
form 4 working at tesco I-gate (where i start learning sell phone with my bf-vt)
form 5 working at tesco QB (promoter to get digi line) and in the same year working at sinma....
then when lower 6 because too much of tuition schedule where i dont have the basic of account and need to go for extra class...
and upper 6 while waiting for result to go uni i was working at KTS for a 14months maybe??
den now i go to college sem break i back to work again...
sometime i wish to be same like my other friends...
having a happy holiday...
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my karate teacher ask me to join him...
go into MLM field...
now i was thinking did i suitable for direct selling (Multi level marketing)
everyone when they hear about this will run away...
i been am member where i know their calcium products is the best, now i join forever because of aloe vera...
i hate been push...
i wish to go myself...
i know my karate teacher just wish good for me....
but i like freedom too much...
feel tired to wish too high nor big dream....