tired so what?

life wont goes as smooth as we planned...
assignment, midterm....this past 2 year life..
i cant demand much on assignment, i cant hope high quality of assignment...
some people would feel i over demand of the quality of assignment
some people would feel i giving stress to my own only...
no matter how people think of me, there is a common...
i m strong, tough people...
honestly, did i?
even my lecturer ask me to loosen myself...
does not need to be so stubborn and tight myself too hard...
i can get tired sometime,
i can playing really mad sometime...
what i told my lecturer was i dont wish to loosen myself...
when we demand on ourselves of doing something means we are pushing ourselves to the goal...
i cant sure that i m in the right track to treat myself like this...
will i loose myself again?
or i m ed losing the past of me?
what i can say is, i m just doing what i can do and responsibility that i should do....
when i tired, people hardly found out the truth tired inside my heart...
they just will make assumptions from my physical...
being tough is just to protect myself and being independent...
so i wont stop by for a long time...
maybe i will just stop by for few days den i will push myself again...
tired cant make us solve the problem we need to face, cant solve the dateline of assignment...
so what i can do is just try my best to completed all before all the things trying to bumped up with me....
tired?
so what...
life is still goes on, time is till moving, earth is still circling...

is still awkward....

we met up...
but still awkward...
he is still silent as last time after we fought...
actually i plan to write in the other blog but i cant even delete the blog now and update that blog cause i forgotten the password...
am i still pretending???
i guess so...:)
is him more comfortable, talkactive in the other groups he join???
my feeling on this guy is it gone???
3years....
did i face it??
am i stubborn not to face it??
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what i write above is not related to the below pic donghae...
below is someone that i really mad of....( as fans- cause he is just someone will only appear in dreams)
i really wait for them to came Malaysia....
sometimes even dream to see them face by face....
why is there someone with such good looking guy??
and a lot of nonsense dream appear in mind...
open twitter and weibo because of them...
really abnormal am i???
hahaXD...

he is so shining, too bright like a star,

he is far from reality world that i have been....

hope he get his happiness asap with someone he love....

你好吗？how are u?

this word is been ask by my ex and he also is my 1st love...
i guess both of us have more than 1year dint contact each other ba...
the last message that i ask him was will he come to my birthday party...
thats all...
after that we dint contact each other liao...
suddenly pass few days he ask me in fb:
how are u?
is really shocked me when i see it...
i was thinking which fellow using his account to chat with me or his account been hacked...
hahaXD...
i dunno what source or reason make him to think of me...
out of sudden...
from the other blog i also got said bout him last time and wat i curious bout he and me...
just pass few days only get the ans for the question that i keep in my heart...
and he also know how i feel last time...
cause for me now, past is past...
so everything is ok to let him see...
but just because of that i realize that another blog i dint update for almost 2years or 3years liao...
and now only i realize that i forget the password ed...
wat i should do???
i hope u really dint mind bout wat i write in the other blog...
dun worry i will live well...
sincerely wish u to be happy...
and waiting for ur big news too...
cause i believe that u will get married before me...
hahaXD

maybe when u play this song den only see my latest story???perhaps, it will bring more feel when reading

just let me maintain to be like this for 2years...

i m very emotive person...
easily cried for a drama...
maybe i had put myself on that cast & drama story...
recently watch please take care of us, captain...(or please captain)
is a korean 2012 drama...
maybe i m too late???
today i had finish watch it...
and realize i actually cried quite a lot...
no matter is the difficulties on main cast or any cameo...
the most i remember is ep 17, where a steward father cant remember the past....
a person that very important and cant remember the person who miss them section...
someone that u respect a lot, love and caring a lot...
even his father cant remember him, but he will always remember his father...
and even his father forget him, his father is still protect his own son although he just thought his own son as brother (hyung)...
how sad will be his son, when his own father cant even recognize him...
while he is trying to let his father to remember...
this part is the part that i cried the most...
当你最在意，最爱，最重要的人遗忘你-（那个感觉）
just let me be like this, be a crybaby because of movie, drama and etc...
be a kids that never grow up for this 2years even i m 22 years old now...
after 2years, i will find the best way to let myself happy...
although now i also quite happiness because of family...
hehe^^