teasing people without caring people feeling are childish...

i had learn to care people feeling when we would like to say something...
i had learn the word of "words are slippery,it hurts people without knowledge"
"words a just like a knife,when you take a knife and cut someone heart,take it out and ask that people: does it hurts???",take it out and said: "no pain ed rite???"...in fact there is still scars over there...
people who dint think of the others feeling are childish,am i rite???
cause i did it the past 3years ago...
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what makes me to say about this???
the condition with me now is like this,
last saturday after a talk from a institution about 4.45pm, my friend and i plan to go jusco near our college.
i was rushing out of time cause i having karate on that day at 6pm...
when we step out of the college i think of my lecturer that may pass the same road when he going back...
i called him and ask where is he???
he said he is in front jusco and ask me why??
i said nothing,missed it..
we would like to take a free-by to go jusco..
den he told me:actually i forgot to punch card...
i will be turning back later...
if you all need a free-by den wait me at office...
i said is ok...
we walked first,if you saw us den only you stop and fetch us go...
he said ok...and after that we really saw him...he also fetch us go...
on the way we saw a group of IBI course mates-monica and the gangs....
i actually dunno until the teacher pointed to us...
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after that,this tuesday in lecturer class they keep saying about jusco and someone cried...
said teacher are unfair...
said they will cried also...
actually, people who cried was my dorm mates after taking her quiz and get very low point...(actually she sad not only for her point is because of that teacher teach her with all his heart also...)
cause she feel she making the lecturer sad....so she cried...
and the gangs keep dig things out until the lecturer said "outside stuff, settle outside" with a very serious face...(actually this lecturer always keeps his smile to everyone)
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same day at tuesday nite, we having class with him again...
they still non-stop teasing...
and my face turning dark whole lecture...
teacher realize it and he also care about me...
what i told him by sms is "i m very moody today,i will not smile at you only for today,may i???"
actually,it makes me very angry now...
i really dint hope that lecturer feels like "dunno what to say or do to all of us"
his car is not a van that can fetch all of us to go jusco...
he also feel sorry that he could not fetch them...
but that gangs after class is still the same...
keep teasing and said to lecturer you dun want to fetch them back???
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actually i success to catch a rat last nite...
after yesterday exam when my gangs and i going to eat tomyam, that gangs start...
out of sudden they very close to us,put their hands on my big size friend and said,
ur dorm catch a big rat rite???
wow,it looks so like you....
now what???
making funny by teasing something that would hurt someone???
actually,my big size friend is the one who cried in the class when getting the quiz result...she easily cried....
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so, what i should do to that gangs???
dont care about them because they are childish???
will them step on top of us like they step on top of that good lecturer???
with my character,will i let them step on me???

累。。。

许然了解自己的身体状况不能吃冷的食物但还是去吃了。。。
因为maths我很多科目都还没有完成。。。
妈妈打电话来问为什么那么多还没做，我还真是无言。。。
说真的，我都不懂自己每一天在做什么了。。
累的后果〉〉〉pimples so much...
every year,i will say i m tired but i wont give up...
time management i should do it well...
so that everything goes well as i wish...

危险期

我最近去学摩术。。。
那个老师最近也是很EMO。。。
我不懂是不是因为我。。。
所以去向老师说对不起因为我时常没有去。。。（后来才知道其实原因不全是我）
就因为跟他说对不起还有聊了一些有关他失望的地方让我觉得有错觉。。。
他突然跟我拿电话号码。。。
我不好意识就给了他。。。
第二天他就跟我聊了很多。。。
然后说很喜欢看到我还说找一天一起去看戏。。。
他是”回教“ 人。。。
妈妈是华人。。。
他告诉我说，他有跟他妈妈说过要找华人女友。。。
=.=
我真的希望所有的事情都是我想太多。。。
现在这个老师还说要取消魔术班。。。
让我跟我的朋友觉得很伤心。。。
因为我们都知道是因为我们这一代的人让他那么伤心。。。

back to study life...

i really not sure whether my blog still have visitor or not...
is being 3months i dint updated my blog...
after a year that dint touch about education and back to study again,wat was my feeling???
i accept the offer from alpha college...
this week was my 2nd week in this college...
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1st day my mum and siblings sent me to this school and the dorm guard (warden) arrange for my hostel...
my brother in law was seremban ppl and we went for dinner with his rich uncle that very welcome me to go his house to stay if i wish to go...
i was crying after playing with my niece cause i know the time is late ed and my family are going home...
after they sent me to hostel and they close my dorm door my tears straight fall without control...
i was telling myself not to cry,must face my mom and family (wave my hand with them and say goodbye...
when i standing outside the window and waiting them to reach their car,i force myself to smile and wave my hand with them...
actually, seremban wasn't far...just need to take for 2 and a half hours to reach klang...
at nite i cry again when think of the moment they left...
i force myself again not to cry cause is a new day for me and i should not having eye swollen to face my lecture and classmates...
there is only 5 chinese include myself out of 71 student...
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2nd day,i still cry at nite and i was thinking that i m too weak...
i wasn't strong enough to control it...
but i still keep my good mood and keep smiling with those new ppl that around me...
i should be independent and friendly with ppl that is new around me...
the next day onwards i had control my eq very well...
until now i can suit myself in ed...
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before going to the college i held my 21st birthday party on 11 feb...
is also a farewell party with all ppl around me in klang...
i invite my 1st bro,but he sick and couldn't come to my party....
i was actually plan to celebrate with him this year...
and before 11 feb,my brain and thought is keep calling a ppl that i wish to met after this 3years of avoiding...
the main purpose is not my birthday but is to say thanks a lot to both of them....
although is a bit late,i wish to say
thanks to both of you that makes my life have such a lot of changes....
thanks for all this while accompany and educate me...
thanks for scolding,
thanks for loving me as your sister last time although time cant going back ed...
thanks for caring,
and sorry to make both of you disappointed....
how was my eq now???
i might to say sorry again...
but i had try my best to control all this while although it does not as good as you all...

plan to go study liao...

here is my next destination...
kolej teknologi alpha...
they giving scholarship for allowance every month and fee of registration...
plan not to use boss money....
dun wish to been tight in a contract...
however,felt very thankful to my boss that treat me good...
i wish i can find a job that can keep learning and something fresh each time i learn...
actually my acc/auditor keep saying wan to sponsor me to study acc...
cause she plan to leave next year...
she need someone to replace...
what i told her is i cant do it...
come on,my acc are so so so bad...
i really dun wish to do it...
by the way i have no interest in it...

my train seems had stop for rest too long...

again,here i come...
get scholarship from dana pendidikan dr hamzaid...
that dana stated their scholarship will give us allowance rm250 a month...
total course of this studies is rm10000 per year (for 3 years=rm30000)...
they will settle up ptptn loan for us...
once we get den this scholarship will stop...
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told my family and boss about this...
mother support,boss not support (normal~~~)
boss said he will fully giving me scholarship but after that i need to work with him...
he said if i interested to study find him and we will discuss about the contract...
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recently,my company(hq) start to repair warranty sony set...
where my jobs are increasing,getting headache,getting stressing a lot and a lot...
where i m going to be the fully cs of our set....
here a news spread where a & k is starting to opened up the most hit selling phone(s) authorise service centre...
and said that it will be opened up next month...
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to be honest i really not that powerful to split myself into 2 big things,2 different system,others sub system and do it all myself...
i wonder why my boss dint hired anyone...
they ask me to train a old admin staff that is available....
here the problem,
she plan not to work next year...
when i want to teach her,she keep on said busy (she dont wish to learn)....
with a mood of does not wish to work how can i teach her le??
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my s authorise service that i sent it all the while teaching me a lot...
he know that i care a lot about my department...
he teach me how to talk to my boss....
he just like my friends...
he said now all the things that i do now,is actually a very higher pose of cs ed...
but what not worth is with that little of salary...
he actually got ask me to go his place to work last time...
he said i m a worker but i care my department just like a boss....
he said i m someone who can think what happen "if" this???
not like his worker,you open a branch got set then do lo...(just concentrate on his repair set)
he kind of pity me...
he said a good point...
the s authorise service centre that soon will be open does not have a experience ppl and connection with s centre ppl...
how we going to get the spare part fast from s centre???
i told him that i may sent to there...
and when we said out all the point...
i think i m the most headache ppl...
i m not only handle dealer & cust,but also boss and technician...
he teach me how to ask my boss to increase my salary...
if he cant give me much den he will intro me to the s service centre...
he said my chance are high...
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what i m thinking now is if i got s service centre did i have to stay there forever to be the 1st line cs??
i think i had said last time that my accountant will sponsor me to study acc if i wan...
i really do not know what i should do,where my interest in...
too many path i had to choose and consider...
i m really tired today...

害怕受伤的我。。。

scare of hurts does it means i will be forever alone???
i dint feel forever alone cause i have friends around me...
although i know that friends wont be forever,but i will still appreciate everyone that beside me...
for the moment i scare of hurts that bring from love...
cause it makes me feel it cannot be lasting...
it seems is not that easy as we said "i love you forever","i love you"
although this 2 words had different of "forever"...
for me "i love you" this word is a kind of "forever" promise...
a guy that said 9th times of darling,saying miss you for 7th times it just makes me feel that guy was playing...no matter how that guy said "i m serious ok"
i still cant open up my heart to believe...
a guy that said he had wait for 2 years to watch movie- it makes me feel it sound like fooling...
sound like all the guys are fooling me isn't???