negative thinking???

haha...
actually i not sure what i m thinking now are negative or not....
this morning my friend told me bout her love story...
she said that guy together with her makes her felt like he is sympathy to her...
is her 1st love also...
this few years i trying not to put a real feeling to someone cause scare the more feeling i put the more i got hurt-my hypothesis???
maybe every girl because of her 1st love makes them scare to step in again...
finally,i found 1 that same with me...
so 1st love are important to create a good memory...
love have no ending...
of course i dint hope she have a ending like me....
i remember my friend send a message to me...
the more a ppl trying to protect themselves the more they cant get their true love...
sometimes i really ask myself,how well i know bout love???
i not a pro but just like to know where,how a feeling created???
i remember when i was playing facebook...
it said that my 1st love is near...
so it means the 1st love that i always put inside my heart are fake????
maybe it correct also...
it not consider a 1st love...
cause both of us become couple for half year but dint go dating,dint holds each others hand,anything that couple done we dint done it...
love comes silently inside our heart...
loves comes without any alert...
love are scary in my opinion....
haha...
of course the love i mean is boy and girls...
cause love divide into too many sections...