my train seems had stop for rest too long...

again,here i come...
get scholarship from dana pendidikan dr hamzaid...
that dana stated their scholarship will give us allowance rm250 a month...
total course of this studies is rm10000 per year (for 3 years=rm30000)...
they will settle up ptptn loan for us...
once we get den this scholarship will stop...
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told my family and boss about this...
mother support,boss not support (normal~~~)
boss said he will fully giving me scholarship but after that i need to work with him...
he said if i interested to study find him and we will discuss about the contract...
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recently,my company(hq) start to repair warranty sony set...
where my jobs are increasing,getting headache,getting stressing a lot and a lot...
where i m going to be the fully cs of our set....
here a news spread where a & k is starting to opened up the most hit selling phone(s) authorise service centre...
and said that it will be opened up next month...
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to be honest i really not that powerful to split myself into 2 big things,2 different system,others sub system and do it all myself...
i wonder why my boss dint hired anyone...
they ask me to train a old admin staff that is available....
here the problem,
she plan not to work next year...
when i want to teach her,she keep on said busy (she dont wish to learn)....
with a mood of does not wish to work how can i teach her le??
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my s authorise service that i sent it all the while teaching me a lot...
he know that i care a lot about my department...
he teach me how to talk to my boss....
he just like my friends...
he said now all the things that i do now,is actually a very higher pose of cs ed...
but what not worth is with that little of salary...
he actually got ask me to go his place to work last time...
he said i m a worker but i care my department just like a boss....
he said i m someone who can think what happen "if" this???
not like his worker,you open a branch got set then do lo...(just concentrate on his repair set)
he kind of pity me...
he said a good point...
the s authorise service centre that soon will be open does not have a experience ppl and connection with s centre ppl...
how we going to get the spare part fast from s centre???
i told him that i may sent to there...
and when we said out all the point...
i think i m the most headache ppl...
i m not only handle dealer & cust,but also boss and technician...
he teach me how to ask my boss to increase my salary...
if he cant give me much den he will intro me to the s service centre...
he said my chance are high...
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what i m thinking now is if i got s service centre did i have to stay there forever to be the 1st line cs??
i think i had said last time that my accountant will sponsor me to study acc if i wan...
i really do not know what i should do,where my interest in...
too many path i had to choose and consider...
i m really tired today...

害怕受伤的我。。。

scare of hurts does it means i will be forever alone???
i dint feel forever alone cause i have friends around me...
although i know that friends wont be forever,but i will still appreciate everyone that beside me...
for the moment i scare of hurts that bring from love...
cause it makes me feel it cannot be lasting...
it seems is not that easy as we said "i love you forever","i love you"
although this 2 words had different of "forever"...
for me "i love you" this word is a kind of "forever" promise...
a guy that said 9th times of darling,saying miss you for 7th times it just makes me feel that guy was playing...no matter how that guy said "i m serious ok"
i still cant open up my heart to believe...
a guy that said he had wait for 2 years to watch movie- it makes me feel it sound like fooling...
sound like all the guys are fooling me isn't???