危险期

我最近去学摩术。。。
那个老师最近也是很EMO。。。
我不懂是不是因为我。。。
所以去向老师说对不起因为我时常没有去。。。（后来才知道其实原因不全是我）
就因为跟他说对不起还有聊了一些有关他失望的地方让我觉得有错觉。。。
他突然跟我拿电话号码。。。
我不好意识就给了他。。。
第二天他就跟我聊了很多。。。
然后说很喜欢看到我还说找一天一起去看戏。。。
他是”回教“ 人。。。
妈妈是华人。。。
他告诉我说，他有跟他妈妈说过要找华人女友。。。
=.=
我真的希望所有的事情都是我想太多。。。
现在这个老师还说要取消魔术班。。。
让我跟我的朋友觉得很伤心。。。
因为我们都知道是因为我们这一代的人让他那么伤心。。。

back to study life...

i really not sure whether my blog still have visitor or not...
is being 3months i dint updated my blog...
after a year that dint touch about education and back to study again,wat was my feeling???
i accept the offer from alpha college...
this week was my 2nd week in this college...
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1st day my mum and siblings sent me to this school and the dorm guard (warden) arrange for my hostel...
my brother in law was seremban ppl and we went for dinner with his rich uncle that very welcome me to go his house to stay if i wish to go...
i was crying after playing with my niece cause i know the time is late ed and my family are going home...
after they sent me to hostel and they close my dorm door my tears straight fall without control...
i was telling myself not to cry,must face my mom and family (wave my hand with them and say goodbye...
when i standing outside the window and waiting them to reach their car,i force myself to smile and wave my hand with them...
actually, seremban wasn't far...just need to take for 2 and a half hours to reach klang...
at nite i cry again when think of the moment they left...
i force myself again not to cry cause is a new day for me and i should not having eye swollen to face my lecture and classmates...
there is only 5 chinese include myself out of 71 student...
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2nd day,i still cry at nite and i was thinking that i m too weak...
i wasn't strong enough to control it...
but i still keep my good mood and keep smiling with those new ppl that around me...
i should be independent and friendly with ppl that is new around me...
the next day onwards i had control my eq very well...
until now i can suit myself in ed...
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before going to the college i held my 21st birthday party on 11 feb...
is also a farewell party with all ppl around me in klang...
i invite my 1st bro,but he sick and couldn't come to my party....
i was actually plan to celebrate with him this year...
and before 11 feb,my brain and thought is keep calling a ppl that i wish to met after this 3years of avoiding...
the main purpose is not my birthday but is to say thanks a lot to both of them....
although is a bit late,i wish to say
thanks to both of you that makes my life have such a lot of changes....
thanks for all this while accompany and educate me...
thanks for scolding,
thanks for loving me as your sister last time although time cant going back ed...
thanks for caring,
and sorry to make both of you disappointed....
how was my eq now???
i might to say sorry again...
but i had try my best to control all this while although it does not as good as you all...