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Alright,stpm leavers know they are going to uni or not on 15 july...
My mum was worried bout me that day...
after I getting my result that I fail to go,my mum invited my aunt they all to join lunch with us...
Actually,i know that my mum was disappointed yet she try her best not to show it cause she know that i m sad with myself too....
after getting know the result my mum keep telling me that i m not stupid...
i m the most clever in her children...
and she keep giving me a lot of encouraging word and find reason to myself so that i wont sad...
so,i appeal again see whether will be accepted by the government uni or not...
and this time there is only 2options...
i put both at sabah...
really hope can get the result soon...(i dint hope like wat the rumors say is 3rd week of sept only know bout it)...
wish me luck...

你好吗?

你好吗?
Today suddenly have this kind of feeling of saying it....
There is a story that I hope to say in my mind...
Telling how this word is come to my mind repeat and repeat again...
Yet,I feel tired and lazy to say it...
I think is time to sleep...
Hehe...
Let me update again next time...

是幻听吗？？？

last saturday went to give ms khoo registration form for marathon cause my company have number of them would like to join...
so i feel that i have quiet sometime dint go there for drink tea...
so i use my brain memory to sent message where i last time always used to chat with them...
automatically their number are in my brain...
but there is only 3 of them...
i cant use my phone to find the others cause the phone i m using that day was customer phone...
1st said she going *other place*...
2nd said not sure could join...
3rd dint reply me after quite a sometime...
so actually i dun have any mood to do so to others ed...
but finally is still successful to go drink tea because of 3rd help...
thanks...although i know that i have so many reason....hehe...

sunday morning went to eat breakfast with 2guys and 1gal...
den go watch movie with 2guy...*nice movie-dun breaking my hearts*
evening go to tao at sunway giza...*dinner with company members*
at nite join a group that is really such a long time i dint join...
actually i wan to visit that fren house and celebrate with him and to face that feeling...
somehow i feel that there is still a block nor a gap between us...
when he busy taking pic,once i heard that he is calling me...
but i scare that he actually not calling me...
so i dint dare to look at him...*我想因该是幻听*
when we take whole bunch of friend pic,i just feel that is quite a weirdo...
i think this show that we really still need plenty of time...

alright now what???

i cant leave my current company just like that...
i cant leave all my things just like this...
i cant just go without responsibility...
my colleague is going to hospital for check up-always migraine
my boss ask him to resign past few weeks ago (before i leave the company-middle march)
coming a new staff right after my penang trip...
she is much more blur then him...
summore last time had opened up her own phone shop...*unbelievable*
cause she can mix 2different place phone..sony mix with nokia???
omg...
=.=

talking bout my penang trip,i do enjoy over there....
how hope am i to staying in that moment until the end of my long holiday...
and we went to clubbing last night at penang...
1st time going that kind of places...
and actually i also dunno should say is clubbing or pub???
cause i told my family after i back home...
they say is pub...@.@
however,i do really enjoy...
and at penang we going to beach where actually this whole year i should not go near water places....
:(
i only put my leg in the beach,and when i go back home and tell my mum i get scolded...
T_T...
promise i wont go near water again...

my result...

alright my result had taken few weeks ago...
my result are in the middle...
all my friend that take result feel unhappy or sad...
yet i m the 1 who keep on smiling and laughing...
i just dunno why....
my result is terrible almost cant get into uni...(2.17)
as uni minimum requirement is 2.0 where i m in the middle...
heart feel scare and worried that i cant go into uni yet i dint cry out....
optimistic???
i dun think so i m that kind of ppl..

et call me to work with them...
actually now i have quiet a lot of things that is in my hand that i should do...
and et urgently need me...
i will be going to et on april...
as my friend said,this is our long holiday...
we should not find a job that pressuring us so much like where i m in K...
until lunch become dinner condition...
basic salary that not that high...
and bla bla bla...
so i think what she say is correct also...
so the reason why i choose to go et is because of i feel et job i think i know what i should do...
and the job i dun think is pressuring much...
anyway,i still not go in there to work so i dunno what is actually will be going on...
i will do my very best...

stpm result coming out tomorrow...

alright few hours later result is coming out...
and i dunno why i dun have any scare feeling on it...
maybe is because i know there is only 2choices i left...
1st>>>my result is supporting to get into government uni
2nd>>>my results is terrible and i going to society university...(working)
that's all in my mind...
am i abnormal???
or i actually ed know my own result in my heart???
haha^^

2years...how growth am i???

in this 2years that dint have any consultant or guidance that lead me way,how growth am i without you around me???that is a question that i ask myself...

in this 2years,without you all so far i m very fine and used to it...
not to be a girl who always wish for a shoulder nor protective feeling...
this 2years is teaching to be what i should be and what that i told myself to be before i meet you all (what i told myself when i standard 6)...

i remember since when i small i always told myself that without guys i still can live...
without "love" that more than friends i still can live...
that was my concepts on that time...
that's y i feel myself are stronger before meeting you...

maybe that time my friends area are not that wide like i in secondary...
can know ppl who are bigger than me for 4-5years...
so in front of you all i m just a little kid that not yet growth...
how well am i growing without you???
actually this ans i also dunno...

i will just told myself everyday i should growing for a little bit more...
everyday before sleep will think of what things that i does not do well today???
what things that i does not do it until the prefect line that i hope??
what i should do to correct today mistake so that tomolo i wont do the same mistakes again???
how careful should i so that i wont make any mistakes or the same mistakes???
everyday and everyday i thinking of the same question to summarize my today report to myself...

that is how i growing i think???
hehe^^
however,i think i will growth a little and little bit more from mistakes and summarizing...