new life.new environment

gonna move in this 21st jun....
from bukit tinggi to klang...
had to say bye bye wit frens and if we have that chance to meet we will meet one day...
my timetable is fully packed...
Monday:tuition(if Thursday 1st classes i manage to go den it will be cancel)
Tuesday: tuition
Wednesday:tuition
Thursday:tuition
Friday:off
sat:tuition and maybe have to work if i get it...
sun:tuition and maybe have to work also...
so that my full packed timetable...
and if really can have a work den it will be at klang also....
i dun wan to work de but my family maybe cant afford too much liao....
actually i really hope to concentrate on my studies....
but no ideas....
have to work to cover ny own financial problem....
be strong....
nothing will influence me on study.....
study now is my life...
i should gambateh...

love

The sun itself sees not till heaven clears-william shakespeare line 12 in sonnet 148
this word actually i learn from the movie the prince and me...
and it tells me love blind you when you involved...
so just go ahead if you really like her/him...
dun give whole of rubbish reason not to chase after her/him...
1things you have to ask yourself is did you like her?
and if the ans yes den just chase after her/him...
dun give other reason that said she/he dun like you la,cause my brothers/buddy girl la...or any others reason...
if you really think of your buddy and when you know that you like her this things happen ed you should control yourself not to put any hope or too close wit her/him ed ma...
but you still choose to close wit her/him,is ed clear that you wan chase after her/him lo...
dun take reason that sound you wan to help your buddy and dunno this kind of things happen....
if your buddy wan to chase a girl/boy,i think he/she more hope themselves chase after their love wan by their own not by helping lo....
and their love wan only can feel his/her sincerity to chase after them ma...
some will use the new love to forget the old wan but some not...
some will give reason say that he/she not yet forget their past love...
maybe some yes maybe some no....
that depends on the ppl heart...
they know themselves...
but hiding in the past not a reason for you and not a solutions for you to solve your love problems....
just face,just chase,just together but dun say yourself stupid....
this is you willing...
and dun say u sad or sacrifice a lot...
is you willing...
remember that...
if you keep on pull and push,just makes other ppl surrounding you suffer an sad....
and when the times pass by ppl surround you ed feel cold wit the relation you always pull and push...
love is not concern bout longevity is concern bout the process or experience-wat i pick up from when dogs falls in love to a cat(hong kong movie)...
maybe readers you will feel i always copy here and there,but i felt all the words are correct when the condition comes to you....
cause of his/her bad attitude you argue....
cause he/she say want you to change den only will tackle he/she,you angry again....
it means you all still concern bout each other but just putting all rubbish reason inside...
maybe he/she angry point are not the same....
but you all are still concern bout each other wat.....
wat faults wan to argue here and there...
to build the feeling izzit?
i dunno...
i not expert in love....

calling

she called me after read the message...
she said she had ntg to say..
of course ntg to say la...
den she ask me when she using me...
i ask her back why she wan to follow ah foo....
the reason she gave me is cause she thought i like ah foo very much...
and heard that i say i wanna try to have relation wit him...
wat i ans her is if i really wan to be wit him also no need like that....
i know how worst is him and i wont put myself into HELL....
come on is i m the 1 say that he is playboy den i together wit him a?
i m not that stupid...
another reason she told me was cause on that day ntg to do so ma follow him lo...
den i say you can send me back den only go wit my bro wherever you like wat...
why must i between you all...
i wait for her ans ,she cried and cried...and i say if i wan to try have a relation wit him also cause i wan to forget someone only....
dun say i like someone that you like and u try to make me and him also a?
she say no lo...
den i say that's y lo...
dun touch each other relation ed..
your love world not mine and my love worlds not yours...
i really very tired to advice her anything....
too many times ed...
not only i advice but v teng also got advice...
but still dint change...
sienzzz...

the message.....

this is the message i sent to my 'best fren' seems she dint stop me to write this for readers to read....
and she wan someone to know everything....
den i told someone everything la....
total 3message i had send to her...:
1st:
i really dunno how to say bout you....every time i say bout you,you will make angry face to me....
this time i really angry and you thought i angry bout you and kk because of ah foo...you too not understand me...so was i...not understand you also...ask in deep of your heart...you really like dua jiak or you ed like kk...?if you really like dua jiak you wont be so close wit kk....the good reason is scare dua jiak will misunderstand you and kk...dun say that you dint close wit kk in front of dua jiak..if you say is kk wan to close wit you den you should keep a distance ..cause to avoid misunderstanding....you can use any guy you like but not my brothers....use your real heart to love them not to use them...if not you wont find your truth love...every relation around you,just using the guy to pay anything you wan...is them stupid?i not your doll keep on using me...i angry is cause i be transparent....-that is 1st message-
2nd message:
pls wake up....dun cheat dun pretend...when everyone told me that you are using me,i dint believe and keep on give you chance...but i really disappointed on you....maybe is cause of your mum and dad relation cause you scare to accept a relation but happiness is not the way you do now...if someone is better den kk and dua jiak i think you will choose that guy rather my bro...cause the other guy can give you more money for you to spend...if like that,den your heart can easily been buy by the guys...simple word...CHEAP and PLAYGIRL....no matter wat....your love world not mines....so was i...my love worlds not yours...why wan follow ah foo on that day?so that next time i know how to find him a?no need...i can ask him to bring me to his house if i got relation wit him....or is you wan to know .....why...he is ur next target izzit?wat hell are u thinking of?
3rd message:
you know i very close wit bt...if you really have heart wan to be my sincere fren den you should find her to help you..i clearly tell you the point i angry about is on that day before i really get angry you as my 'best fren' dunno i angry and try to make joke wit me....you thought i really not dare to throw that food a...i throw that food not cause of yao yeng is cause i really angry bout you all ed...i keep on repeating that i tuition next day and you all just thought as wind blow...at behind you all i just be transparent...if like that next time dun call me out...i not transparent...think yourself...are you really like my bro....which bro...your eldest bro teach you to lie on guy...i think before your bro teach you ed know how to lie on guy and use them...just complain to anyone you like..i dint care...really understand me wont get along wit you....
that's all the message...
i feel myself too cruel to say on my 'blur fren'...
sorry...
will be continue wit calling...

transparent

i got go out to watch movie 1 day wit my 'best fren','my bro', and my subang fren ah foo....

my bro ask me to bought for his boss...

i ask my sis to bought it....

she told me that she bought all is at 11.45p.m...

but the ticket she bought for his boss is 11p.m....

so i just keep on saying sorry to his boss....

i tell my bro wat happening...

but den we when to watch our movie...

at the early movie my bro and best fren go to sit couple sit...

maybe they just wan to watch me and ah foo got anything at below them or not....

i dunno...

after watching i told ah foo to go back i will ask my bro to send me back....

that is before going to car park....

after going to car park i when inside my bro car but i not sure that ah foo know how to go out or not...

so i when down and ask ah foo cause his car just in front us....

when i ask him that time,my bro shout at behind to call him go for a drink....
ah foo dint hear that....
so i dint tell ah foo....
cause wan let him go back earlier he working the next day...
i went back to my bro car...
he ask me how...
i told him that i dint tell him and i state the reason for my bro also...
den he ask us where we wan to go....
so i told him to go back cause i having tuition the next day....
but my best fren said follow him,and my bro really follow and dint care wat i say....
haizz...
on the way they follow him i ask my bro why wan follow him and wat he said is cause got someone ask him to follow ah foo...
and on the way i keep on saying i wanted to go back...
at last,when near subang there ed,he ask my fren 1question... that is,she got said meh?
wat means?
wat i said on the way is just a wind blow la...
i really feel very angry bout this...
and my fren just dint say anything....
after they nearly at ah foo house ed,foo called me and ask me wat we really wan..?
i ask them and they said have a drink...
and we went to asia cafe...
my mum called me that time...
scolding me,warning me and said start tomolo i cannot go out ed...
i told them wat my mum said and they said lucky they just order 'bali tong'...
but is large plate...
in 1 table wit 4 ppl only my best fren know how to eat...
ah foo, me wont eat...
and my bro dunno how to eat also...
i told them i wan to back before 3a.m...
my bro said ok lo...2.50 only back...
i was really have a shock he tell me that...
and i try to warn him that i wan back at 2.45...
i told them to finish the food at 2.30 if not i will throw that...
my bro say that movement will be very slow...
i said i will be very fast if i just throw it on the floor...
my best fren and my bro thought i just wan to be yao yeng in front of ah foo...
cause when i said that both of them said wah,yao yeng o....
shit...
they dunno that i really angry...
after ah foo drink finish his drinks,i ask him to go back...
after they said yao yeng this word i keep quite and dint have a talk wit them..
and show a face that i really angry ed...
when ah foo back that time,my bro try to talk to me...
and when the time near 2.30a.m,they go back to the stall they order and tell them to pack...
after ah foo left the table,he told me that he still at outside wait for me...ask me dun worry they will fetch me back on time...
that time my phone had no credit and i too angry until i dun wan borrow phone from them...
at 2.45a.m foo called me are they sending me back ed.?
i said yes...and where is him?
he told me he still at outside...
i really feel sorry to him...
on the way walk back to my house,my bro follow me...
i talk also dint talk to him,see also dint see him just close the door...
after few days,i send a massage to my fren...
it will be my next topic of my blog...
will update for you all next time...
pls comment wat you all think if is you for this topic of blog..?