公主不可望白马王子的出现了。。。

the princess doest not know when it start...

she does not hope anything about love...

she does not hope anything about fairy tales that there is a prince could bare with her....

she used to be doing things alone...

cause it was much more convenience....

the princess does not know when it start...

that fairy tales always have its happy ending...

like what she said before prince live in castle like a prisoner...

the princess does not know when will the prince come out...

so she learn to be independent all the times...

maybe all the obstacles that she face after loosing a watchman by her side make her to learn...

that everything depend on herselves...

never ever hope there is someone could save her when in troubles...

there is a lot of people would think that this princess are lonely...

but actually this princess dint feel that...

she is now happy with the environment...

she having a very caring family while she was travelling her worlds now...

the princess now are numb about love...

the princess now are numb to depend on others....

the princess now are numb to hope the prince will come out...

the princess are numb to be alone...

the princess are numb to be independent...

the princess are used to the environment now...^v^

::suddenly feel like want to write story, hope it wont be boring::

the 2nd old folks home i went??

it was a chinese society club activities..
just because my college having little amount of chinese people so we are automatically added to this club...
9 dec we went to old folks at seremban called tong sim old folks home....
i realize it was totally different with the 1st wan i went at klang past few years ago....
cause this old folks seems to be more unclean den the old folks at klang...
a lot of dust, rust things that we need to clean up...
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got 1 grandpa is quite quiet but keep looking at us when u do ur job...
got 1 grandma is keep nagging non stop whenever she start talking (cute when she keep talking and smiling)
got 1 grandma is just like head of all of them, where she also opened up the door for us to go in....( she know more than 4language, indian, mandarin, cantonese, hakka, teochew, malay.... her name call lai peng, i called her "peng jie"

<------1st group="group" p="p">
just wish to clean up all the strings as clean as possible----->





i having quite a lot of conversation with peng jie...
i also try to talk to zhu jie...(she having hearing problem, hard to hear what we said but she is cute keep smiling with me^^)
peng jie having diabetes like my grandpa also...
i also shared drink with her, cause she wan to test the soya drink but i not sure she can drink or not so i told her, u cut it and i drink half for u and she just try a little bit in her cup... (yi ren yi ban, gan qing bu hui shan-in hokkien she said) den the environment laugh ^^
when clean up the chair string i just wan to clean it as clean as possible to let it looks new...
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the day before having this old folks was my sem dinner where we combine with sem 1 students...
erm, i joined to dance but i did mistake beside the stage...so shameful....
1st time dance in crowd....lol...
my mum said my make up look nice, but shoulder very big.... (lol...i know...but i dunno how to make it slim)
1st time i m using fake eye lash from elianto...

quiet nice, can be accepted...hahaXD

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before the dinner, friday i slept 6 in the morning wake up at 7.50am having class till 1230pm den class continue from 3pm to 6 near 7pm... (take a nap at 130pm to 245pm)

after that having meeting for cs, and go for dance practice after know what they wan to discuss in meeting....

after dance, play fb a while den go sleep near 2am ba... 

this cause the panda eyes bigger day by day...

the voice are very similar...

yesterday was a oren sport marathon that held by MPK,YKK and others...
is a rainy morning...
i cant skip from not going to that marathon although i had been advice....
cause i had a bet with my colleague and promise that i will go....
there is a lot of people over there...
when it start until the castle i heard a voice of a man that i seems to be so long dint hear it before...
yet i does not confirm with it and afraid to look back....
after that sound,those people who passing me with the same back posture with him, i will think again and again...
"is just my illusion or he really came???, is him???no is not...just my illusion...that fellow that cross by me is more fat than him... couldn't be..."-all the voices that in my heart and mind are keep repeating once i saw a man with the same posture
after that, i keep myself at fb to wait for his pic (maybe) or tag himself in that activities (maybe)-all was just if he got goes to that activities...
lucky does not have any prove that shows he is going...^^
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honestly, is quite for sometime that i dint go to exercise and marathon any more...
if i m not mistaken i went the 1st time was 2010 with 10km...
i had gone for 3 times in 2010, twice in 2011 and only once in 2012...
this time marathon makes me exhausted easily...
got dizzy (maybe not enough sleep cause 2am something only fall to sleep and wake up at 6am), chest pain when running (maybe wrong posture of running)....
now whole body pain....
and i had to suffer it while no body is going to wash my cloth and i have to climb up myself to my bed at new place here...
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after run afternoon when to jogoya (starhill)...

hehe^^

~this was a picture taken with my colleague, my boss son and his friends~

熟悉的陌生人

今天遇见了以前很要好的朋友。。。
以前很依靠，依赖的人，因该也是以前很了解我的人吧。。。
我不懂他是真的没有看到还是装没看到。。。
他跟他的同事一起去用餐。。。
当我看到他时候，我真的很想只跟他说：hi
差一点他的同事想要坐在我们的隔壁可是他叫她坐在另一边。。。
when he go to toilet, he was walked pass by behind me...
i realize after saw his back...
den when he came out,he choose to walk another path...
if one day we meet up in a crowded place, i will choose to thought him as outsider...
i will not feel to said hi again...
i dint angry, i dint sad, i dint disappointed...
我只是觉得我们不懂该这么面对彼此而已。。。
我不会闪而勇敢走在你面前。。。
只不过是以陌生人的身份来面对。。。

我。。。迷信

my form 6 gang plan to go for a vacation...
den i told them that i cant go near water for this year until next year...
once next year i can go as much as i can...
is not because i dun wish to join
but is i really cant...
one of my friend said "u byk pantang lo"
den i told her "i m like that and that is for my own good..."
den another friend and her trying to keep attacking me,..
saying something like den u cannot go take bath lo,den u cannot drink water lo den u cannot near "longkang lo" and bla bla bla...
i was starting to hold on...
i saying that is not funny...
den one of them saying very funny lo...
wakaka...hahaha...
maybe for them is funny but not for me...
i dunno for readers...
does it really funny???
yes we can control what we want and dun want...
but can you control your fate???
maybe some of u yes...
what happen if ur fate is saying that tomolo u are dying???
can you control that tomolo u will not dying???
maybe you all will think i think too much...
or maybe i m very superstition...
but this is what i feel...
god dint allow us to do this there is a reason behind...
just like a mum asking u not to do that, it means there is reason behind...
what i can say is i m angry and disappointed on you all...
maybe for u attacking what ppl believe is funny...
and is not about level of our relation...
there is a limit also no matter how close...

do not sure what is reality...

today actually plan to donate blood...
but my 2nd sis did not come back and whole family going to kajang to visit a aunty that very close to my grandma last time...
no car for me, cant go out during holiday...
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this sem break go back to ex company to work...
i remember last time i said in fb that i wish to任性....
对谁任性，真样任性我不懂....
actually i wish to give myself a break...
sometime i have a little bit of time, i will think...
i was working every holiday since form 1 except lower 6...
when form 1 holiday i working at a uniform shop near pandamaran...
form 2 and form 3 working at giant as promoter....
form 4 working at tesco I-gate (where i start learning sell phone with my bf-vt)
form 5 working at tesco QB (promoter to get digi line) and in the same year working at sinma....
then when lower 6 because too much of tuition schedule where i dont have the basic of account and need to go for extra class...
and upper 6 while waiting for result to go uni i was working at KTS for a 14months maybe??
den now i go to college sem break i back to work again...
sometime i wish to be same like my other friends...
having a happy holiday...
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my karate teacher ask me to join him...
go into MLM field...
now i was thinking did i suitable for direct selling (Multi level marketing)
everyone when they hear about this will run away...
i been am member where i know their calcium products is the best, now i join forever because of aloe vera...
i hate been push...
i wish to go myself...
i know my karate teacher just wish good for me....
but i like freedom too much...
feel tired to wish too high nor big dream....

a sudden thinking...

i think i ed put down ba....
i feel there is no use i kept those memory to hurt myself ed....
maybe some of my friends are wonder why and what he had done???
what i can say is he dint done anything to hurt me...
just i choose to hurt myself...
maybe for others people that don't know me will feel that i'm very pity...
maybe for others people that don't know anything will feel he bullied me...
what i can said is he done nothing to me...
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today suddenly feel i ed put down...
cause if i keep on hurt myself will making people think that i m weak and pity...
in fact, i m not...
all this while i thought hurting myself is the best way to get rid about him...
but i think is time to change...
good luck and keep moving on....

this picture was taken when i having my college dinner....theme: masquerade...

:: peace >>> life goes on ::

the 5th times i cries because of the same movie

remember i said before in 2009 if i not mistaken...
that was my 3-4 times i watch 1 litres of tears...
this year i intro to my sabah friend to watch (i also watch it for the 5th times)
what i can conclude is i m well control compare to last time....
maybe last time i will cry until very badly but this time only certain part...
guess how about my sabah friend???
she dint even make a tears of this movie...
even my managerial math teacher also said that he cried when he watch the 2nd chap...
she really very strong isn't???
her bf told her that this movie is really very sad even he himself also cry...
maybe 10ppl who watch this also will cry but only 1 or 2 ppl wont....( i guess)
i intro this movie just want to see her cry because of movie but i m not success...
i guess is very hard for me to watch her tears...
----------------------mission failed-------------------------------

trustworthy is the most important for me...

i not sure how readers look on the past blog about something happened that i not sure...
i not sure my friends are talking/comment about me or not...
yet i still feel i m very sensitive about it...
one of my friends said: the most scary things is not ghost but is a pretended human
here i heard again "A PRETENDED HUMAN"
honestly who is the pretended ppl that he mean???
i not sure...
he was one of my important friends in my life...
PRETENDED??
are you talking about me???
or my friend in this college???
if she really pretended den i dunno...
after i heard she said she saw something only i told her on the same night wat i feel...
if she pretended, i really cant get why ???
if you say i m pretended, it means u dint trust on what had happened to me...
and you are trying to said that i m scary ppl.....
cause u feel i m PRETENDED???
i remember last time "HE" also said the same word...(PRETENDED)
fine...
what i will say is, if until i back to klang (23 jun) i dint saw u comment to explain who u mean by PRETENDED, that's it......
if u really mean i m pretended den told me why u feel that???

something happened that i not sure

yesterday night i try to sleep early so that i can wake up to do my studies,
unfortunately, i cant sleep (i know myself reason y)
den i dun wan force myself to sleep so i just wake up and do my homework...
about 4something in the morning i go to sleep....
i not sure is i m too tired, think too much or force myself to sleep...
i feel my head very pain & numb...
i cant feel myself on bed...
i try to open my eyes but is too heavy to opened it....
i hear some songs but i was wonder that time only i m the one havent sleep where the song comes from???
den i feel unwell...
i called up my god names...
den only i can feel myself on bed....
and the song stops...
in the evening,
my malay friends that very close to me told me that yesterday nite she saw something playing with her...
firstly, she thought is another friend that playing chatting in fb but she saw her very concentrate on typing in fb so is impossible...
den she thought is her illusion....
but again it appear....
she close her eyes and faster fall to sleep...
will it be "that kind of things"???
feel very unsafety...
cause my "府" being wash yesterday evening....
and this month is my exam month...
i dint go back to klang until 23 jun...
really hope nothing happened cause i always wake up study at mid night...
i cant study in the evening cause there is too much of problems...

exam phobia

erm, 1st time in the history that i wish my result more than 70 so that i can get a or high CGPA/PNGK....
honestly, i quite worry that i cant success...
what i can react to get the result is keep study to get the marks that i wish...
if i only just sit there and wish for the marks it will never get it...
while, in my new surrounding here having 2 friends that got exam phobia...
both of them will get sick when they feel stress...
honestly, i dunno how to help...
i maybe the bad result among all my friends in klang....
but at here i need to teach them...
so i need to make sure that i understand den only i can teach them....
one of them she dint understand at all about basic maths....(positive,negative concepts)
she told me that if she having serious phobia until she cant heard what we said at her left ears and fever den the next stage will be lost memory...
so what i have to do???
cant give her too much of pressure...
all the best.....

老天爷你听到我的心声。。。

下雨了，
最近天气都很热。。。
还以为自己生病了。。。
actually just now the rain not very heavy....
and i keep on saying pls rain as heavy as u can....
not more than 1 minutes, it really rain...
maybe a lot of ppl will say cheh,raining only ma...
doesn't means god hear my voice...
for me, he heard it...
is like a miracle to me...
i just said that i love heavy rain and it really from small rain to heavy rain...
it remind me of my primary moments...
as we call one of our friend as xiu yu...(cause rain god hear what she say)
xiu yu is a movie in a drama saying about she is a dragon daughter in a sea....
where she falling in love with normal ppl i think...
but i forget what name of that movie liao...miss it so much...
whatever, i know god u love me...
u sometimes is cruel to close my door of my life, but u still love me giving me encouragement for me no matter where i go....

i love God...
this is the 1st time i take my college pic...
yes, it is...
looks very poor college...
should say, yes it is...
cause our ceo gives every student rm250 every month before we get our PTPTN...hehe^^...(appreciate what we have)

心理测验take from fb....

take this from fb...feel not bad....


測測你到底有多清純？
想知道自己的氣質是一塵不染的清純，還是飽經世事后的成熟嗎？
想知道你是真可愛還是在假裝清純嗎？
一切都可以從你聽的歌習慣中體現出來，快來測試一下你的清純度有多高吧？


1.你聽歌的時候比工作的時間長嗎？
yes-跳至2 no-跳至3

2.你比較喜歡聽哪類歌？
快拍的歌-跳至5 慢拍的歌-跳至4

3.你是男性還是女性？
男性-跳至7 女性-跳至4

4.情歌是你最喜歡的歌曲類型嗎？
yes-跳至7 no-跳至6

5.你認為周傑倫的風格如何？
完美好聽-跳至6 受不了-跳至8

6.聽歌的時候，你都會把音響放到儘量大的音量嗎？
yes-跳至7 no-跳至8

7.你喜歡聽搞笑的歌曲嗎？
yes-跳至8 no-跳至9

8.你曾經，或者現在還迷戀范曉萱的兒童歌曲嗎？
yes-跳至13 no-跳至10

9.你可以說自己不是五音不全嗎（唱歌走調）？
yes-跳至11 no-跳至13

10.你經常和朋友去唱卡拉OK嗎？
yes-跳至12 no-11

11.你知道這段歌詞是哪首歌曲裡的嗎？
歌詞：“他揚起愛情勝利的旗幟，你讓我選擇繼續愛你的方式......”
yes-跳至18 no-跳至12

12.你聽過“哈狗幫”的歌嗎？
yes-跳至13 no-跳至16

13.英語歌曲中，你喜歡？
女歌手的歌-跳至14
男歌手的歌-跳至16
自己覺得好聽的，沒有特定性別-跳至17
不聽英語歌-跳至15

14.你聽外語歌曲的原因是？
喜歡歌詞-跳至17
學習外語-跳至18
聽調子-跳至16
電視劇的插曲，所以喜歡-跳至19

15.你愛聽火爆的DJ歌曲嗎？
yes-跳至16 no-跳至17

16.聽節奏感很強的歌曲時，你會不由自主的搖擺嗎？
yes-跳至19 no-跳至18

17.鋼琴曲的感覺是？
優雅-跳至21 受不了-跳至18

18.你聽過《黑色的星期天》嗎？
yes-跳至22 no-跳至19

19.你認為唱歌時穿什麽樣的衣服比較好？
暴露的-A 正常的-D 古典的-跳至20

20.你會比較喜歡關注新出的專輯嗎？
yes-跳至21 no-跳至22

21.你很還念從前的老歌嗎？
yes-D no-B

22.如果讓你創作歌曲，你會寫？
言情歌曲-C 民族歌曲-A 搖滾歌曲-B

剖析報告：

A.完全無清純感覺
你已經完全不會讓人覺得清純了，
即使是你穿上非常可愛的衣服，有著無比天真的眼睛和笑容。
不過從你身上散髮出來的氣質與自信，所有人都會感覺到，清純絕對不是屬於你的感覺。
打扮上，你喜歡前衛，喜歡流行，喜歡另類，喜歡性感，有時候也喜歡裝扮清純，僅僅因為好玩而已。
不清純并不是件不好的事，只是說明你已經徹底的成熟，完全成熟。

B.消失一半清純感覺
你屬於非常非常正常的人類，如果你的年齡在15至30歲之間的話，
你有的時候會顯示出非常清純的一面，有時候處理事情的時候有顯得各位的沉著冷靜。
你給人一種捉摸不透的感覺，他們會覺得你有的時候純潔得就像個天使，
但有時候他們又覺得你瘋狂的像個惡魔。在現在的社會交際圈裡，你這種性格是非常吃得開的好性格，繼續加油！

C.盡顯外表清純人類
說你清純，不得不說你有天生幸福的外表。
在別人見到你的時候會覺得你的靈魂和你的人乾淨透明得像個孩子，甚至被你的那種清純而吸引。
可是實際上，你的心靈只有一種沉著冷靜的成熟味道，和你的外表正好成為鮮明的對比。
你在人群中很有優勢的地方是，你可以扮演任何角色，清純或者成熟穩重是你自己的選擇，看你的想法了。

D.從裡到外都清純感覺
你是那種內心到外表都清純的人類，因為你從小就把自己保護的很好，
不讓外界的世俗侵犯了你自己的內心和你自己的性格、人格。
與其參與到複雜的人際紛爭中去，你寧可自己悄悄的坐在角落里聽著流行歌曲。

ps:没想到这个世界还有好多清纯的人哦~~^^❤
你是哪個呢？^^❤
大家~大胆的把答案写出来吧~~~~^^❤

执着means what actually??

执着 and stubborn what is the difference???
just a sudden dream...
dream that he smile at me,call my name...
that's all...
maybe there is a lot of ppl will ask, why i cant forget him???
what he had done until i still keep remember him????
why i wan keep him in my heart and is so unforgettable???
why i wan keep him while all about him will make me down sometime???
the ans i actually also dunno...
this is what he is in my heart...
he teach me a lot about life...
he makes me know i should not be mischievous...
he teach me to live in reality (last time), he dun wan me to avoid from problem or stress each time i face...
he guide me...
he bully me sometime but also makes me happy in the same time...
for me, he know a lot about life cycle...
he is just like a mentor to me...(should not say like)
his opinion or thinking about something always far further than my thinking (mature vs childish)
while actually i thought i ed think very far...
he teach me to appreciate people around me...
why our relation become like that???
why i choose to be outsider???
choose to loosing him as my bro & fren is to remind myself about the mistake that i had done...
what mistakes i had done until i choose to loose him???
while i ed choose to forget about the mistakes...
maybe again i m avoiding...
he is much more prefect in my mind...
loosing him is my pain...
my college fren said the most happy moment is the most unforgettable memory when we had lost it...
i think maybe she is rite about it...
this is what he is in my heart,memory and mind...
what am i to him??
to him i think he ed describe bout it on 这种人其实很-i forget is "li hai/ ke pa"...
but i got write it in my others blog wirtten it...
i m saying this is not because of i wan to dig it back...
just this sentences remind me always...
where this sentences also a factor makes me choose to be outsiders with him...
how bout others opinion???
again i m asking for opinion about what ppl think of me...
i know i should not ask...hehe^^

why there is so many ppl asking bout bf stuff???

this month i not sure got how many ppl ask me this question ed... 

i know all of u are caring about me... 

1st vt: when we meet that time...is very surprise me that he asked: soo ping,actually u r single or got bf ed??? my ans: i m still single...ask him y???he said nothing...fine...i know is a caring from u all... 

2nd my sis fren: i go to his saloon to cut hair and he asked me u got bf or not??? i say no and he gave me a face like unbelievable...i ask him y,he said no la...u very friendly...feels u get bf easily... 

3rd my magician teacher: we having our club tshirt ed and he ask me the same question u dun wan buy for ur bf??? and actually is not 1st time he ask me that question... repeated i said no...

4rd: a new fren that i know from my magic club...same question same ans i given... 

why i cant maintain single in my life meh?? actually i feel quite funny... 

izzit we will have a bf once we go to new environment??? for me the new environment that we having maybe is just lack of love so we involve ourself in relation to get attention nor love from someone so that we can get more caring rite??? (got 1 of our sem guy keep change couple with the same sem girls) 

although i know love is caring and sharing with each other no matter in wat environment... 

and i feel love is a difficult meaning for me to know about ... i dint understand well about it at all... (cause i just know love ppl from my hearts and is very hard for me to say out rather than using action to show it)

but honestly i like to see ppl couple...hahaXD (did i having problem???) 

what i can say is still the same... 

my prince is in castle but like a prisoner... (my past blog post on 2009 september)

another malay song that is quite meaningful for me...hahaXD

taxi band- Hujan Kemarin

kemarin ku dengar,
kau ucap kata cinta,
seolah dunia,
bagai di musim semi
chorus 1:
kau datang padaku
membawa luka lama
ku tak ingin seolah
semua seperti dulu.
chorus 2:
tak ingin lagi rasanya ku bercinta
setelah ku rasa perih
kegagalan ini membuat ku tak berdaya
chorus 3:
tak dapat lagi rasanya ku tersenyum,
setelah kau tinggal pergi
biar ku sendiri tanpa hadirmu kini lagi
(repeat chorus 1-3)
ohh..
(chorus 2-3)
ohh...
woahh...
huu...
hujan kemarin

teasing people without caring people feeling are childish...

i had learn to care people feeling when we would like to say something...
i had learn the word of "words are slippery,it hurts people without knowledge"
"words a just like a knife,when you take a knife and cut someone heart,take it out and ask that people: does it hurts???",take it out and said: "no pain ed rite???"...in fact there is still scars over there...
people who dint think of the others feeling are childish,am i rite???
cause i did it the past 3years ago...
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what makes me to say about this???
the condition with me now is like this,
last saturday after a talk from a institution about 4.45pm, my friend and i plan to go jusco near our college.
i was rushing out of time cause i having karate on that day at 6pm...
when we step out of the college i think of my lecturer that may pass the same road when he going back...
i called him and ask where is he???
he said he is in front jusco and ask me why??
i said nothing,missed it..
we would like to take a free-by to go jusco..
den he told me:actually i forgot to punch card...
i will be turning back later...
if you all need a free-by den wait me at office...
i said is ok...
we walked first,if you saw us den only you stop and fetch us go...
he said ok...and after that we really saw him...he also fetch us go...
on the way we saw a group of IBI course mates-monica and the gangs....
i actually dunno until the teacher pointed to us...
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after that,this tuesday in lecturer class they keep saying about jusco and someone cried...
said teacher are unfair...
said they will cried also...
actually, people who cried was my dorm mates after taking her quiz and get very low point...(actually she sad not only for her point is because of that teacher teach her with all his heart also...)
cause she feel she making the lecturer sad....so she cried...
and the gangs keep dig things out until the lecturer said "outside stuff, settle outside" with a very serious face...(actually this lecturer always keeps his smile to everyone)
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same day at tuesday nite, we having class with him again...
they still non-stop teasing...
and my face turning dark whole lecture...
teacher realize it and he also care about me...
what i told him by sms is "i m very moody today,i will not smile at you only for today,may i???"
actually,it makes me very angry now...
i really dint hope that lecturer feels like "dunno what to say or do to all of us"
his car is not a van that can fetch all of us to go jusco...
he also feel sorry that he could not fetch them...
but that gangs after class is still the same...
keep teasing and said to lecturer you dun want to fetch them back???
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actually i success to catch a rat last nite...
after yesterday exam when my gangs and i going to eat tomyam, that gangs start...
out of sudden they very close to us,put their hands on my big size friend and said,
ur dorm catch a big rat rite???
wow,it looks so like you....
now what???
making funny by teasing something that would hurt someone???
actually,my big size friend is the one who cried in the class when getting the quiz result...she easily cried....
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so, what i should do to that gangs???
dont care about them because they are childish???
will them step on top of us like they step on top of that good lecturer???
with my character,will i let them step on me???

累。。。

许然了解自己的身体状况不能吃冷的食物但还是去吃了。。。
因为maths我很多科目都还没有完成。。。
妈妈打电话来问为什么那么多还没做，我还真是无言。。。
说真的，我都不懂自己每一天在做什么了。。
累的后果〉〉〉pimples so much...
every year,i will say i m tired but i wont give up...
time management i should do it well...
so that everything goes well as i wish...

危险期

我最近去学摩术。。。
那个老师最近也是很EMO。。。
我不懂是不是因为我。。。
所以去向老师说对不起因为我时常没有去。。。（后来才知道其实原因不全是我）
就因为跟他说对不起还有聊了一些有关他失望的地方让我觉得有错觉。。。
他突然跟我拿电话号码。。。
我不好意识就给了他。。。
第二天他就跟我聊了很多。。。
然后说很喜欢看到我还说找一天一起去看戏。。。
他是”回教“ 人。。。
妈妈是华人。。。
他告诉我说，他有跟他妈妈说过要找华人女友。。。
=.=
我真的希望所有的事情都是我想太多。。。
现在这个老师还说要取消魔术班。。。
让我跟我的朋友觉得很伤心。。。
因为我们都知道是因为我们这一代的人让他那么伤心。。。

back to study life...

i really not sure whether my blog still have visitor or not...
is being 3months i dint updated my blog...
after a year that dint touch about education and back to study again,wat was my feeling???
i accept the offer from alpha college...
this week was my 2nd week in this college...
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1st day my mum and siblings sent me to this school and the dorm guard (warden) arrange for my hostel...
my brother in law was seremban ppl and we went for dinner with his rich uncle that very welcome me to go his house to stay if i wish to go...
i was crying after playing with my niece cause i know the time is late ed and my family are going home...
after they sent me to hostel and they close my dorm door my tears straight fall without control...
i was telling myself not to cry,must face my mom and family (wave my hand with them and say goodbye...
when i standing outside the window and waiting them to reach their car,i force myself to smile and wave my hand with them...
actually, seremban wasn't far...just need to take for 2 and a half hours to reach klang...
at nite i cry again when think of the moment they left...
i force myself again not to cry cause is a new day for me and i should not having eye swollen to face my lecture and classmates...
there is only 5 chinese include myself out of 71 student...
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2nd day,i still cry at nite and i was thinking that i m too weak...
i wasn't strong enough to control it...
but i still keep my good mood and keep smiling with those new ppl that around me...
i should be independent and friendly with ppl that is new around me...
the next day onwards i had control my eq very well...
until now i can suit myself in ed...
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before going to the college i held my 21st birthday party on 11 feb...
is also a farewell party with all ppl around me in klang...
i invite my 1st bro,but he sick and couldn't come to my party....
i was actually plan to celebrate with him this year...
and before 11 feb,my brain and thought is keep calling a ppl that i wish to met after this 3years of avoiding...
the main purpose is not my birthday but is to say thanks a lot to both of them....
although is a bit late,i wish to say
thanks to both of you that makes my life have such a lot of changes....
thanks for all this while accompany and educate me...
thanks for scolding,
thanks for loving me as your sister last time although time cant going back ed...
thanks for caring,
and sorry to make both of you disappointed....
how was my eq now???
i might to say sorry again...
but i had try my best to control all this while although it does not as good as you all...